Wednesday, 14 July 2010

Rough day.

Today was the funeral for Finn. We didn't have a formal service, but wanted to do something plus I wanted a burial as cremation freaks me out a bit and I wanted a set place to visit him, place flowers etc. The hospital arranged everything, it was just DH and I plus my mum, the hospital chaplain was there and she said a prayer for Finn and for the whole family. I have never seen such a tiny coffin in my life. White, with his full name engraved on the top. We got a beautiful plot under a cherry tree.

We have to wait three months before we can put a headstone on, I intend to get one, and to put flowers on in November when he should have been born, and at his real birthday on July 2 next year.

I should go back to work next week. Not sure yet if I am ready, or not, but now that today is over which has been looming over me for the past week I hope I can start to look forward a little. I know it will hurt for a long time and we will never forget but have to keep a positive outlook, at least for our other two children, who have inevitably been affected.


  1. Sending you love and good thoughts today. Take your time and take care of yourself. Thinking of Finn ♥

  2. Much love to you and your family today. Please try to look after yourself. <3

  3. Take care Mamma. Much love coming to you.

  4. hugs and prayers and love to you and all your family. Life sucks sometimes, I'm so sorry, for all of it xxx

  5. Hello,
    My name is Christian and I have just recently stumbled upon your blog. My heart goes out to you and your family and, although I am not religious, my thoughts and soul are with you. Take care.